Conversations with God ~ "I want to be content."

Originally published on 7/23/2018

God reminded me of this sweet Bible Study series two days ago. I wrote it in 2018, when I lived in different circumstances than now of course. My heart smiled as I read a few of the weeks in the series. God said, "Let's post it again." So here goes. See my notes that follow each week - to learn my view of the conversation now, almost two and a half years later.

Conversations with God - Week 1 (2018)

So here we are.

My conversations with God.

Not exactly what I was expecting to start sharing.

But thrilled to follow through with God's plan to get personal in my words to you, the lovely reader.

It is going to be different than my past writing and lessons.

It is getting real for me now; with a time to simply tell you about my actual real life talks with God.

I promise you it is a genuine account of my discussions with the Almighty.

Expect it to be relatively short and most likely relevant to your life story.

Occasionally you may get a long tale of an especially good lesson that requires a background.

I may stick with this informal format and grammar because it feels like me right now, sharing real stuff.

Feel free to have you own heart to heart with God as you read and maybe even question me.

I dearly love to write for you. This more personal series is especially sweet for me, although I know there may be a few skeptics out there.

I pray that God will touch you in an extremely special way throughout these posts so that your conversations with Him may increase.

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Conversations with God - I said, "God, I want to be content."

Listening to one of my favorite pastors the other day, brought to my attention the need that we all have: to be content just where we are in life. Should we strive for more and expect great tomorrows? Of course. But for today, for now, for the moment we are in - we could greatly benefit from being content.

Sounds like a wonderful idea, however it does not seem so easy to achieve (this contentment.) Some days I just don't feel content with life. I look at my life, and it is pretty nice. I have what I need. No serious complaints. So why do I feel dissatisfied with life sometimes.

Recently I had to ask God (because I needed to know lol), "What is wrong with me? Why don't I feel content with life?"

I start too many conversations with God with "What's wrong with me?" I know I have a good life. So why does that pop out often? I continued to get really bold with Him and asked "Is this it? Is this all life has to offer me?"

Wow Truly! Was it necessary to go that far? My God, your God, our God, wants us to be open and completely honest with our feelings. He knows them well. Therefore, I just let it out from time to time with Him.

My answer:

My answer from God was "Name one reason you should be content with your life right now."

So, my mind starts spitting out physical reasons - I have a nice car, home, clothing... then it redirects to I have great family, friends...

Before I can utter any of my thoughts aloud,

He (God) says: "You only need one reason to be content. Just one."

"Jesus."

End of conversation.

God gives me these fantastic sharp, indisputable replies so many times. I usually get a good laugh from it because that kind of wisdom is just so darn sensible. These answers I receive are perfect. You just accept it, laugh at your human self and agree. Also, it stays in my mind as I go through my day.

This day I saw my true contentment is in Jesus. What else do I need? I don't need more than a Savior in the scheme of things.

Now did you like that? I hope so. It is a true discussion I had with our Father God. It is really fun actually. Not always in the beginning, but it works out really well in the end.

Meditation for the Week:

God says: "You only need one reason to be content. Just one."

"Jesus."

Love you all,

Truly, the messenger only

Notes on 2/28/2022 about my conversation with God published on 7/23/2018.

I can remember this conversation well. I know the exact road that I was driving on when I asked God this question. I was not feeling content with life at the time. I was not satisfied with my job and had begun to question God if I would ever have a real career. My passion was and will always be writing. It appeared to me at that time in life that my dream to write in some capacity for work was not going to happen. I was in a state of disenchantment, feeling that I was a career drop out.

In addition to that, I was very lonely. Oh, I had loads of good friends and a wonderful family. But I had not found new love. I was divorced in 2009. My dating life with online dating sites was not that successful in the many years. I yearned for a loving Godly husband. It had not come year after year. This led to my discontentment leading to the question for God that day in 2018. "Why don't I feel content with life?" I questioned God. I knew that God had a beautiful plan, but as each year passed my patience died a little, and so did my hope.

Two weeks later, I had my first date with my future husband. True love arrived.